Coming out. . . .

Okay so I was on youtube the other day and there was a guy talking about him coming out. Somewhere in the middle of the video he started talking about how he wasn't going to come out to his parents or family because it's not their business. So I kind of want to talk about my coming out story.

**This is what happened to me and I don't know if coming out will result the same***

Back when I was 14/15 I, how can I say this, forced, out of the closet. In my high school yearbook, some kid thought it would be funny to put it in the yearbook, and it got published. Well the question came up weather I was gay or not. At this point in my life I had been with both guys and girls, but after all was said and done I alway had stronger feelings for guy.

Anyhow, back to me coming out. . . .The first person that I came out to was my sister (actually she's my aunt, but my mom adopted her when my grandma passed away, and with me being older then her (by a month) I see her more like a sister then an Aunt.) It was easier to tell her.

Okay so it came time to tell my mom. She was in her room watching TV.

"Mom, can I talk to you?"

"what happened."

"Nothing, just that I wanted to tell you I have a boyfriend" Saying th last person almost in a whisper.

"do you mean a girlfriend?" she looked at me confused.

"No, you heard my correctly, I have a boyfriend. His name is Tony."

I could see her expression go from confused to anger.

"but what is the family going to say, your dad is going to blame me for you being gay, and his sisters, and you know this is a sin under God's eyes."

"Mom, mom, it's not your fault, and from what I've heard, a father that is not in the picture is what's to blame, but that's besides the point. As far as it matters, its' not your fault.

"The bible says you have to marry a women and have kids."

"I know what the bible says, but that's not how I feel. Plus, as much as I hate to say this but, when all is said and done, I have to live this life till I die. So when I marry that girl and have those kids, because you want me to along with the whole world. But what happens when you die? Then i'm going to become one of those guy's who cheats on his wife with other men. I mean what would you do if you found out that beto (stepfather) was cheating on you with an other man? I don't want to put anyone thru that. I'm sorry." I couldn't handle it anymore and just walked out of the room.

I think the best thing I did was not rebel. Not try to shove it in my mom's face, but let the idea set in. It took a few months, but we talked one day, and she said all the right things.

"I now see what you mean." She said "and it shouldn't matter what people say."

Thats all that mattered to me.

So is it your families business? No. But in my head I think about all the events that I would be missing out if I hadn't told my mom or my family that I was gay. Christmas, birthdate's among other things.



***Stay Cute***